Ain't that the truth

Shout out to Emily and Jeremy from Post Secret. I didn't send it in but its nice to know that someone else knows what this feels like.

I hate this poster. It reads "Date Rape 1 in 4 women will become victims of rape. 84% of them will know their assailant. THINK AGAIN" Its a very informative poster until you get to the THINK AGAIN. That part of the poster almost seems to be pointing the finger at the victim. Like the woman could do something to protect herself. If only that was easy. Date Rape is painted as naive girls that put their drinks down at parties and are slipped a roofie. Date Rape is more than that. Date Rape is also knowing your rapist and being completely aware and taken control of and being disregarded and having someone you know and maybe someone that you care about using your body as if its a piece of meat. That's what happened to me. I'm sick of feeling like its my fault. http://www.thisisby.us/index.php/content/date_rape

THS Investigates

I watch crime shows nonstop.

Today, I've watched two episodes of THS: Investigates (Dating Nightmares and Women Who Kill). The TV just said "Women who suffer abuse are more likely to become violent." "One out of four women is the victim of a traumatic assault done by the spouse."
Tonight, I will probably watch Law and Order: SVU. I also like A&E reality shows like the First 48, Forensic Files, etc.

I had therapy today.

We talked about my dream. I keep thinking about in the dream how it felt to hit Jeremy. It wasn't satisfying. But I guess being violent towards him wouldn't be satisfying. I want Jeremy to suffer some type of permanent damage. I just hope karma comes around. In five years I hope I am on top of the world and he is on the very bottom. I also hope that I will no longer dwell on Jeremy and what has happened to me.

Sometimes I wonder if I like these shows because I can relate especially Dating Nightmares. Am I a Special Victim?